i still cannot let it go.
i didn't know it will hit me this bad.
i really cannot let it go.
i still cannot accept the fact that you have already left.
this is so pain.
VERY pain.

cikgu,maafkan lah aku cikgu.
kerana terlalu biadap terhadap cikgu.
untuk dosa-dosa aku.
cikgu, aku janji aku akan belajar bersungguh-sungguh.
cikgu, cikgu akan selalu dalam hati aku.

although my malay sucks,
i will always do my best for you cikgu.

i am filled with guilt.
guilty of talking behind your back.
guilty of taking your expired chocolates.
why do you have to go so soon?
i never had a chance to say sorry to you.
i never had a chance to last talk to you.
after hearing that they dont allow us to visit you,
i changed my mind.
cikgu, every night i pray for you.
to give you good health.
cikgu, you were the best.
cikgu, i love you dearly.
and if you were there just now,
everyone who came loves you so much.

how i wish i could see you again.
i wanna see you the way i always see you during malay class.
at the computer,
playing solitare.
you at your table,
stirring & drinking your drink.
how i wish i really could see you.
at least in my dreams maybe?
i couldn't stop myself from crying when i saw you just now.
i couldn't help myself.
my heart beat very fast.
i cannot stop crying up till now.
i couldn't stop crying,
even though i know it would never help.
i was pathetic just now.
i wish i could do one last thing for you.
be it,
go down to the office to ask mdm hadijah something.
be it,
buy for you a coffee.
anything.
just name it.
you were the best.
i swear.

now,
i hope you are resting in peace.
no more sufferring.
no more pain.
no more work.
no more medicines.
i really hope that you are really in peace.

here i am,
shivering away.

im sorry for everything

cikgu, i'll ALWAYS love you.

Shazlin Ahmad Murad.
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